man, things have just been down hill by a major lately.
I don't know what I will or want to do about this because this has been one hell of an experience.
so to let this off in a written form, I've been so confused about everything lately, my sexuality for one.
So I have a crush on one of my friends, why? Because about maybe four months ago at the least they had loved on me, shown me affection that I could never even imagine that I'd get ever. It was incredible that someone actually showed me affection so dearly and actually meant what they said, each one. But I never even knew that I would in turn grow a crush on them because of this, and I am ashamed of it. Of myself. And I don't want to feel this anymore. They've moved on to liking someone else, meanwhile, I'm over here wanting to cry each time I go to visit their page because they'll never know what I feel because I refuse to tell them. And I wont and don't plan too. I don't want to feel this way anymore, it hurts. It's been